justbreathe

Saturday, January 28, 2006

two annoying things

are:

1....the rancid falling down sock.curse you bastard! ive just started my walk on the beach and you are currently riding under my heel.you've ruined my day,gah!

2.....feeling nauseas but not actually barfing.it's like, either puke or don't. unless,it couldn't mean.....nooooooooooooooo! wait a minute,oh yeh,i havent had sex.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

i love you noam!

you know when you hear someone's name being mentioned casually by several different people over the course of a few weeks, untill you eventually have to say, who the hell is this noam chomsky ????? well,that was me, and by golly my curiosity got the better of me and when the opportunity arose to see him speak at ucd i bloomin' well grabbed it.

however, let me give you a piece of advice. if you're going to see a a highly respected speaker/philosoher for goodness sake, eat before you go!!! i was so excited to see noamy and had had a long day. of course no sooner was i in the venue when i got hideously and distractedly hungry.i started squirming in my seat, i couldnt concentrate on all the important stuff he was saying.i started to imagine his head as a giant burger.....that was the low point.curse my stomach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it let me down bigtime.by the end of it i was a petulant whelp, moany and angsty.sigh.

on the positive the place was packed to the hilt,whatever that means. people are not so apathetic as we are made to believe, we just feel paralysed to help or do anything. well, i for one am going to educate myself more about what exactly in going on ( ie about iraq and now iran etc and indeed previous similar situations. ) this man is amazing as i discovered when i checked out his webpage.so there you go, noamy, the living legend. what a dude.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

THE HIGHS ARE HIGH...,BUT THE LOWS ARE FUCKING LOW

i'm going to sound like an ungrateful miserable twat, but my God, being happy is a pain in the rocks, isn't it??? don't get me wrong, when you're down, its shit, you can't sleep, all is grey, life is a load of cow-balls. but i've discovered elation does me no good either. first of all it's stressful, second of all, i still can't sleep,coz im just lying there thinking of how AMAZING everythin is. then, of course is the knowledge that's it's fleeting, because happiness can not sustain. then, after that there is the stark comparison of how ordinary and non-amazing evvvvvvvvvverything else seems.

told you i'd seem ungrateful.yes, you may have guessed said experiences concern a lad. God i'm smitten. however i'm very shit at playing any games and hate hate hate inconsistency. hence the lows.

so now, ive decided it much more suits me to live a sort of semi dull life with sprinkles of grandeur in extremely moderate and closely monitiored doses. sigh, that isn't half fucking boring though!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

mr. sandman, hit me with somethin!!!!!!

ah sleep.so many people take it for granted you know.mmost people envy someone who has money,or a hot dude or a great job.not me though,nosiree bob.i envy the lucky fucker who can go to bed and drift off within a few minutes.i wouldn't say i'm an insimniac,that's a bit extreme,but fucking hell,i'm getting there.Christ i'm wrecked.

is there a more lonely feeling than lying there in your bed,blinking in the dark....alone.i doubt it.it's so fucking boring too.and do not tell me to get up and read a book or watch tv,that's cow balls.ho hum,i'm one of those sad sacks that only loves a scheduel,it's great fot the old body clock.with all these hols and partying,im all over the shop.now said partying has ceased and i'm a walking zombie with a stupid brain that won't switch off,well damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!! helllllllllllllllp meeee......